Still Lovin You

You say goodbye
You say we tried
You say there's no use anymore

You walk away
No tear on you face
You just close the door

"What can I say, What can I do
I can't walk away, Still loving you

Who can I be, Where can I turn
Is there a way to go back, Or are the bridges all burned

There's not a thing I wouldn't do
To get me back to you"

I want to stay,
I want to fight
Isn't there a way to make this right?

Words were said
Hearts were broken
People were let down

But with everything we faced
And all the memories made
Shouldn't we put this back together

"Chorus"

There's nothing I wouldn't do,
I can't walk away still in love with you

Way Out

This is written for and about my "big brothers." Sometimes I realize just where they are in their lives, and how great they could be it they would just realize there is more to life than booze and drugs. They are truly amazing and well amazing people when they do find their way out, I just wish they would more often, or permanently.

Way Out

So young, just 15
Your whole life ahead of you
Plans that you had made
Dreams you wanted to chase

With one drink and one puff
I watched your whole life come undone
That boy just slipped away
I wish there was a way to make you stay

"I wish you'd walk away from that bottle
And put that burning out
See what in life is worth having
And find your way out"

In her eyes, you’re everything
Superman and prince charming
Only 2, she depends on you
I wish you only knew

"Chorus"

So smart, such strength
So much loyalty and greatness in you
If you'd just walk away
I wish there was more that I could say

I wish you'd walk away from that bottle,
Find your way out

Brave

Okay so I wrote the chorus and a couple line of this like 6 months ago, and then just forgot about it, I had no direction to go with it yet. That is until my brother told me he was joining the Marines, and like I always do I was laying in my bed in the middle of the night and these lyrics just kept coming to mind, so I got up and the rest just flowed out of me. I have not yet experienced this song, but I know it is my future and I would just like to tell my brother that I will be, scratch that I am so proud of him, I never knew he was so incredibly brave.

p.s. I know on paper the first vs and the rest of the song don't meld, but they really do...I promise.

Brave (Bradley's Song)

 

Never seen you look so good,

Never seen you stand so tall

Never seen you so afraid,

Then stand and face it all

I've never heard you say good bye,

Not knowing what is down the line

Never knew that you could be so brave,

I never knew that you were so brave.

It's 3 am and I can't sleep again

Thoughts of you push the sleep away

Wonder where you are, can you see these beautiful stars

3 months and counting you'll be back home

"I pray for peace, I pray for comfort

I pray you're safe where ever you are at tonight

I pray for strength, I pray you're praying

I pray you find your faith somewhere in the fight

Mostly I just pray for you tonight."

You say you're fine, you say you're not scared

You say you're following what you know is true

But you're so far away, we sure do miss you

2 months and counting, you'll be back home

Chorus (with first verse under it)

Never seen you look so good, never seen you stand so tall

I never was more proud of you

Then the day you came home,

The day that you were home

Wayward Soul

Days go by,

I'm  sick of standing idly by

I'm out here questioning,

Everything under a midnight sky

Chorus

Just trying to find a way

For this wayward soul

Trying for answers

Trying to gain control

Of this wayward soul

I could assume

Assume that you were right

And I could believe

That trying isn't worth the fight

Chorus

So now I'm down here,

Down  here on my knees,

It's the last place I ever thought I'd be

But I'm praying for guidance

Asking  what I should believe

Now there's this voice,

Growing from deep within

And there's this feeling,

That's pulsing like there's never been

Oh I'm just trying to find a way

For this wayward soul inside of me

Trying for answers

Trying to gain control

Of my wayward soul

The days go by,

No longer standing idly by

Found my answers,

Under a midnight sky


So one of my friends informed me that I needed to put a little back story about the songs so she knew why I wrote it, or what inspired me. So slowly I will try to do that for all of these, some of these are so old though that I don't know if I will even really remember. But I will try.

This song is actually pretty new, I am pretty sure I wrote it in February. I like to accredit this song to a time in my life when I was getting to the end of a very confusing time and was finally finding some answers and having what I like to call my own spiritual revolution. I was being to realize that I believed in the gospel whole heartedly but I was not relying enough one the Lord to guide me and was not consulting him enough in my life. I like to think I am getting better at that and have made huge leaps towards being in sync with what I want and what I need according to my Heavenly Father. So that is that for this song. 

Wait

You lead, I'll follow

You talk, about tomorrow

You sit, and we'll stay

Just tell me you don't want me

Tell me you don't want me

 Tell me you don't want me, To stay

When you laugh, I smile

If you ask, I'll answer

If you change, I'll maintain

Just tell me you don't want me

Tell me you don't want me

Tell me you don’t want me, I'll leave

While you're gone, away

I'll stay here and wait

They say it helps nothing

But tell me this is nothing

Tell me love is nothing

They say chivalry is dead,

But I know you're alive and well today

But there's a price you've got to pay

There's a price I got to pay

There's a price we've got to pay

They come, for me

But I'll wait, patiently

They say I am crazy

But tell me this is crazy

Tell love is crazy

They say you are gone,

But I know you're coming home to me

But there's a price you've got to pay

There's a price I got to pay

There's a price we've got to pay

And Wait.


So until recently this song didn't really have any meaning to me at all. When I wrote it I liked it a lot but it didn't connect to me at all. Then the other day one of my very best friends in the whole world read it and she said she liked it, and later that day I re-read it and was like whoa, I totally wrote this for her. Crazily enough I didn't even know her when I wrote it. But now I just know that is was meant for her, it is her life story right now. I may just have to send her the music for it too. Anyways now I am really in love with it!

Who I'll Be

I don’t know who I am today

Haven’t got that far along

So don’t go and label me

For what you think you might see

Chorus

“You can’t put me in a box, With the lid on tight

Tie me down to your light

One answer can’t, Begin to explain me.

How can you judge

When you don't know who I am

Not even I, Know who I'll be”

I’m all shades, Black and White.

All colors, In between them.

I'm in all things that you see

Everything that you hear

And I'm not going to be

Who you say I should be

Chorus

I’m still looking for, A part of me inside.

That something, something more, That I need to be me.

Haven’t found that key, To unlock that door

I’m still waiting on, So much more

There's something deep down inside of me, Yearning to be let free,

Just wait and see, How great I will be

Chorus

Not even I

Know who I'll be



This one is pretty straight forward I think. basically I am in this process of discovering who I am and working on being a better person. But this doesn't mean that I will be who you want me to be, I need to find out who I need to be and do that. That's really all there is to it. 

When We Were In Love

Sitting cross legged on the back of my truck

Staring down the road where we grew up,

It fades to grey

Distant memories

Reminds me of drinking kool-aid out of Looney Toon cups

Playing cops and robbers just the two of us

We never thought, that we'd grow up

Back when, we were in love

Our parents always joked,

 and our friends all teased

Saying that we were meant to be

If we would see what they all see

Reminds me of the first time you ever kissed me

Our friends all there, are parents could see

We thought we were, so  grown up

Back when, We were in love

So many years have come and gone

Both of us have moved on

We've lived our lives

Yet still side by side

I can remember the day when we realized

No longer children with stars in our eyes

That love was this

Now that we're not in love

Here we are today, staring down memory lane

Remembering all the days, That led us this way

Oh I'd never trade in all those days

Oh Back when we were in love


This is one of my most favorite songs because it is about my best friend growing up. We did everything together and where the cutest little couple. As we grew up everyone was sure we would end up together, but as we got older we began to have less and less in common and I knew for a fact that I could never be anything more  than friends with him. He is definitely still one of my most favorite people in the world, but we have grown in two very different directions. But that is life. 

Welcome Home

I want to be better

I want to be worthy

I want to go to home and wake up at your feet

I want to hear you say well done my child, Welcome home

I'm no sinner, in the worlds eye,

But you know my faults, know the sins I hide

I'm no saint, but I'm working towards it

Not perfect yet, but trying to reflect his image

I just want to be better, than I am today

Want to be worthy, of the blood he shed for me

I want to go home and wake up at his feet

Hear him say well done my child, Welcome home

Now this world, has fallen pretty far

We've forgotten, who and what we are

Forgot about our wings

Forgot about our eternal destiny

Oh I'm trying to remember,

Trying to keep it in my mind

In every move I make

Try to act as if you were by my side

Oh just trying to be better, than I was yesterday

Trying to be worthy, to be in your grace

One day, I'll wake up at your feet

I hope to hear you say well done my child, Welcome Home

I want to be better

I want to be worthy

I want to go home and wake up at your feet

I want to hear you say well done my child, Welcome home

These Shoes

Was it love at first sight, oh I would hardly say

You tried so hard just to get me to look your way

Then you promised me everything a girl could dream

Said you'd to me the moon, stars, and the sea

Chorus

'You Always complained about the shoes in the closet

Saying that they, took up way to much room

But come tomorrow, I'm packing them all up

Putting on my best pair and walking out on you"

At first you were my prince charming

But I never did see the moon, stars or the sea

I realized soon you full empty promises

And that you were a no good liar in an evil disguise

Chorus

The last thing, you'll ever see of me

Is my footprint in that gravel drive

left you my ring, and an empty closet

Enough space you can fill up with your lies

Chorus 

Stronger Than Stone

I have a tendency to stumble

Fumble, And fall

Over my own to feet.

But there's a thing or two,

You should know about me

You see, all the pressures of the world

Wont ever make me crumble.

No matter how much I stumble

It's the pressure that make me

That shape me, Into who I am, today.

It may seem that I'm falling to pieces,

Falling apart like the grains of sand

But if anything, I'm coal, a diamond in the ruff

All the pressures will only make me

Stronger than stone.

You can try,

Stop my dreams from being alive

Tell me that I won’t make it

Oh I won't take it

It may seem I'm falling to pieces

Falling apart like the grains of sand

But if anything I'm coal a diamond in the ruff

All the pressures will only make me

Stronger than stone

So I'm rough around the edges

A little off center, I'll agree

But take some time to polish and you'll see

I'm gonna shine brilliantly

It may seem I'm falling to pieces

Falling apart like the grains of sand

But if anything I'm coal a diamond in the ruff

All the pressures will only make me

Stronger than stone

Stars Go Black

They were 17 when they first met

Everyone said slow down, don't loose your head

Wait and see where it goes before you've fallen

They were too young and too in love to listen

A month later they were married in a chapel

Under the Vegas city lights

They were living on dreams and minimum wage

Thinking man our future's looking star bright

Years later and miles away from those city lights

They face the struggles of the day to day

Both trying not to fight,

But he's not the boy she fell in love with,

Many years ago

And she's no picture of perfection

That he once knew

They were married in a chapel, under city lights

Living off dreams, but those sometimes die

Thought their future was looking star bright

Oh but sometimes, those stars go black

Mmm Stars go black

Oh now they're staring cross the table

At perfectly good strangers

Neither can remember what brought them here

There love has faded like the wedding pictures

They just want out of here

They were married in a chapel, under city lights

Living off dreams, but those sometimes die

Thought their future was looking star bright

Oh but sometimes, those stars go black

Mmm Stars go black

Soundtrack of Our Summer

The first leaf just fell from the first yellow tree

It softly falls like it's mocking me

Like a yellow badge on the green, green grass

That summer's ending

No matter how many leaves fall

Or how cold the air is now

I'll never get that rhythm out of my head,

Of the soundtrack of our summer

Chorus

"It started with a splash and a scream

As we jump off the dock into the river at 3am

It continues with the sound of a rock skipping across the water

And then we laugh

There's the background music of our favorite CD

That you burned, just for me

As we sing along not missing a beat

It's the soundtrack of our summer"

We were lying there, watching the stars fall from the sky

Filling the bridge of our song,

 with ooh and awes

And then an awkward pause,

Chorus

Now the trees are naked,

And each day shorter than the last

My memories fading,

I never knew we wouldn’t last.

Chorus

But I'll never get that rhythm out of my head

Oh it's the soundtrack of our summer.

Natural Disaster

It's been a long time since I last saw your face

In fact it's been forever since I even heard your name

But seeing you hear today this way reminds me of yesterday

And all the silly dreams we used to chase

Chorus:

You with those eyes and me in these jeans, add a little bit of history

And It's like asking for trouble in a hurricane

We both know what happens when we're together

It's like  a natural disaster

You ask me for a drink, I comply reluctantly

Can't figure out why I came, when I know it's just game,

But you just walked in and made your way over

You smiled, I smile, and we both know where this is heading,

It's heading in that same direction

Chorus

You're sliding in, closer each second

Maybe this time we can stop each other

But I can't stop my heart, it's beating faster

I feel you leaning in for the kill, and I'm not running still

Chorus

I can't stop my heart from beating faster,

Yea, Just like a natural disaster.

Make Believe

As we're walking down the street

I wonder is there really a love so deep

A matching beat for every heart out there

Does every puzzle piece have their pair?

Chorus

"Is there really such thing as one true love

That was sent to us from above

Someone who's yours for eternity

Someone who's there for everything

 Or is it all just make believe, Make believe"

And I'm wondering, with his arm around my heart

Is he the one who's meant for me

Is he that fairytale prince, I'll ride off to the sunset with

The one who sweeps me off of my feet

Chorus

Now I don’t have to wonder if he loves me

I know it when he touches me, and I can't speak

But is this really real, or just the makings of a tragedy

Like a Romeo and Juliet ending in the making

Chorus

Feel the Light

Hey you sitting in that high school hallway

Feel like nobody  cares?

Those shadows are creeping in and

You're feeling awfully scared

Chorus

"Look up, look up to the darkened sky

Soon those storm clouds are going to rise

Sun's going to shine

So lift your chin to the suns' awakening, don't let the shadows win

This is it, this is it

This is life, this is life

So hold on tight

And feel the light"

You feel like the world is fighting against you,

And you have to fight back

You think nobody's been what you've been through

Oh but everyone's been there before, so just

Chorus

You don't know why it's got to be this way

Why does there have to be rainy days

Can't the good times just keeping on rolling  in

But how would you know the sun is shining if it's never been dark?

Would you know what's  good when you've never had it worse?

So when it hurts, just

Chorus

Lift your chin to the suns' awakening, and feel the light. 

Ripples

The water moves quickly by my hands

This isn't going quite as I had planned

That night the water so still and black

I should have known this is time I'd never get back

(Chorus)

Your making ripples in my soul

Causing me to lose control

I can't help but to lose my mind

I guess that might be fine

I guess sometimes, sometimes

oh it's time for change

Once my life was slowly moving by

I thought all was going right

But then I met you , You knocked to the floor

And left me wanting more

I never needed anyone

I got by just fine alone

But you make need something more than air

It's like you've changed the atmosphere in here

(Chorus)

I came back to where we met

The water so still and the water so black

Why does it hurt so much to have it all back

I guess sometimes, sometimes

Oh it's time for change

The water moves slowly by my hands,

Like I had always planned.